The Big Explanation

Here it is. For anyone reading this, I just started this blog business today. There are several reasons for this. I want to put my thoughts into words, because it helps me work through issues and forces me to make decisions. My intention is to have a baby sometime in the near future; and if I keep this up, I think this virtual diary might answer my child's questions later in life. Plus, I think I'll find it interesting to reflect on someday. And perhaps, someone out there in the world may be in the same boat as I am, and may like to share in this journey. I welcome comments.

All right, so I should explain who I am and how I got to this point. I'll be 29 in two weeks, which is relatively young, I suppose, however I've experienced a lot. Let's start with my up-bringing...very typical Midwestern, middle-class, two-parent, two-kid family. I was involved in sports and church (United Methodist), made good grades, and had an active social/love life. I went on to college after high school graduation. I moved to Texas at age 22, was engaged at the time, and started my Ph.D. program. The engagement ended within 6 months and I was happy on my own. While pursuing my Ph.D., I started my M.B.A. (Crazy, I know.) All the while, I dated a lot. I mean, a lot. I got into online dating. (Swim at your own risk!) I've got so many strange and entertaining stories from that, which I'm sure will come out in future posts. Point is I didn't find a man who wanted to commit (shocker, I know), and I didn't find a man I wanted to commit to. So the take-home message is I'm not going to search for a father for my future child. It just doesn't work like that. Not for me anyway.

Now I'm at a pivotal time in my life. I have finished my M.B.A. and will defend my dissertation very soon. (I really should be writing that instead of this, but oh well!) I have a house, car, and career. By the way, I'm a business developer/scientist for a biotech company. I'm unmarried, but I'm ready to have a child. I've decided I'm not going to wait for someone else to make that manifest in my life.

My life has culminated to this: single by circumstance, pursuing donor insemination.